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by maxwell 20 Replies latest jw experiences

  • ShaunaC
    ShaunaC

    Welcome to the board Maxwell!

    I too left the Borg in the same fashion as you are about to do 31/2 years ago. I too was "exemplary" but had not as of yet developed any concerns over doctrine. But at 24 and already being married 6 years I was dying to live my own life and make my own decisions for the first time in my life. You know how it is with a father who is an elder/PO, hubby a MS and since you're a pioneer the whole congo gets into to telling you what you can do too.

    So although I still felt it was "the truth" I left to have some freedom. I also needed freedom from a marriage that I knew within a year of marrying was not for me. (What did I know at 18 after never dating at all)

    So I committed adultery to free myself from everything in one fell swoop. At the time I was already separated for almost 3 months. I called an elder friend who I was very close to and told him to set up a meeting with a committee. Although I arranged the meeting to confess, free my hubby of any wrongdoing and get myself DF'd, I left the meeting sobbing in tears for how awful those men made me feel.

    It wasn't till a year and a half later I discovered the real truth from the internet, reading Crisis of Conscience and In Search of Christian Freedom. I have absolutely no regrets about any of my decisions. I knew my hubby would not follow. And since I wasn't leaving for doctrinal reasons I had nothing to entice with to get him to leave. The sad thing is he is a great guy and we could be good friends if only it wasn't for the Borg. In fact, I'm ecstatic for him that he's finally remarrying this month. The poor man needs some sex. He's 31 and I'm the only one he's ever had and that's been 4 years ago. (Not like we had any sex when we were married anyway).

    Anyway...I wish you all the best on your journey. Know that many of us have been there and know how it feels. Leaving it all at once was both completely liberating and scary cuz I was truly left alone to find myself. You will find yourself too.

    Enjoy this board. It's full of wonderful people who will help you in your self-discovery or just be there with an understanding listening ear. WELCOME!

    Shauna

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