Haven't been to the kh in a couple of weeks but went to the memorial along with hubby because I'm still in the early stages of my fade.
The speaker gave a really nice talk which was divided into 4 parts: why we need ransom, how it benefits us, who should partake and how to keep benefiting. I was ok with the first 2 parts cuz he backed up with scriptures. Then the part about who should partake departed from scripture and went into this convoluted thing about how although Jesus died for us, we're not to partake because Jesus didn't make a covenant with us so we don't partake. Then he spoke about the emblems and told us that we're welcome to partake yet none of us should...very confusing.
The trauma came when they presented the body and blood of my Lord and Saviour yet I couldn't partake- I was put in a position where I was presented with the blood and body of my lord and was expected to reject them! It tore me up inside so badly I ran into the back room and bawled my eyes out rather than reject my Lord.
The whole thing was so contradictory and you can have it yet you can't, Jesus died for you but not for you...it broke my heart.