I love the last paragraph of your so called rant. It describes the anguish many feel when stepping away from the borg.
When I was breaking away, in a mental health facility after trying to off myself yet again, my father spoke (via phone) to my psychiatrist and told him that my problem was 'a spiritual one'. He has no idea how right he was. My spirit was dying in that organization. Now that I have reclaimed it, I can so much more easily have a relationship with Divinity, communing freely and as often as I desire.
I wish you much joy in your explorations and am expecting the best possible outcome for you and your spouse.
Adiva