It's some kind of funny... I was the perfect little ass, even that I never believe it all.
There was something that doesn't sound right... but, I was little, I was with my Family, I never believe that my Family will make me adopt a cult. Nobody does, right?
Well I get batized in my mid teen years, I was the exemplar, MS at 19, even serve my time at Bethel. Get married to a Pioneer, start a spiritual family, get my 2 kids. All normal.
Almost normal: I love to read, and I spoted several contradictions (blood, oral sex, preaching). But everything to the backburn, in the back of my brain. But one day...
I wasn driving my 4 years old to the school one day, and talking about the birthdays and he hit me with the most rational perfect question that anybody can do at any parent: "will Jehovah kill all my friends? they do celebrate the birthdays!"
I didn't answer. Why should a loving God kill other 26 pretty kids? because they ate birthday cake? because they share gifts? just for that? So, David was safe, but the other 4 years old deserve death.
Anyone who is a father knows that we can't let a fly come close to our kids because safety... what about killing our own kids? Why? will jehovah will my son's classmates?
I never believe that my father deserve death, he is far better person than several JW... even better than me.
But what open my mind was the simple question that my son made... it hit... And it hurts.
I know that my best friend was not very well. We are not in the same country, he was an elder and we talked about the religion and JW believes. But all normal.
I asked him. In a Morpheus moment (The Matrix movie) he said: "you have to find it for yourself". Not very helpful, but I understand: In this cult world everybody can be "an agent".
And I read... and read... and hit hard the 1914 thing... and before touch the first apostate reading I was sure that there was something smelly in the room. Maybe this was not the only truth religion... or maybe it was my other kid diapers...
So, in a few weeks I open my Eyes. A long time ago now. But still in, beacuse of my family... And now I will run...
Oh yes! the first thing is going out this place, take my wife and kids and run away from this place, from this people, the family and everybody and start again!