Ahhhhhhhh ... methinks awatcher is a 'believer' in God, but is searching for truth.
Sounds a bit like myself actually, I was/am still a 'believer' in God, Jesus, Bible and the message.
I was never a 'strong' jw, too manyt things didn't feel right, but i was baptised.
awatcher, I think I am starting to understand you a little. ( I hope )
But you have to accept 'truth' friend, you have to 'prove' things to yourself. If you truly belive in God the Father, Creator and almighty powerful, His Word the Bible and Jesus Christ Our Saviour,
Then I suggest you start stepping up and proving your worth
to 'God the Father' who is going to judge 'all of mankind' you, me, and everyone else on this planet, while you still have the chance to do so, or you might find yourself like 'the brides who ran out of oil'.
You don't want to be like the Laodicieans ' luke warm' did not Jesus say he would vomit them out of his mouth ? I was reading up on that very thing the other day, it was an eye opener to truly understand the meaning of 'luke warm' - water, neither hot nor cold, makes a person want to vomit it back out.
you cannot be 'luke warm' friend. it doesn't cut the grade with God. You will be found 'wanting' when Jesus comes. Also, are we being currently judged, in our lives, how we live our lives, good or bad, how we treat others, how we follow Jesus's teachings. are we worthy students or not ? are we worthy workers ? are we 'happy in the Lord'.
Have we allowed man to seperate us from our creator ?
Have we allowed Satan to 'snare and mislead us' ? you have a lot of deep thinking and deep study to do = work, effort, if you truly want to learn the 'truth' and pick up your torture stake and follow Christ.
Remeber Jesus' words ' get away from me you workers of Satan, I never knew you' ' you originate with the father of the lie'. etc.
jehovah is not God's name, jehovah is not God, therefore you cannot possibly have the 'truth' and be following God the Father, therfore, if you are not for God, you are for Satan the Devil, the father of the lie, the god of this world, of this system of things, of
''all false religions in the world''
you are too lazy even to do the research on the name je-hovah, even though it has been clearly explained to you.
jehovists are a man-made cult, wrapped up all nice and pretty to deceive us into thinking they are the only true Christians on earth, designed to entice us in and holdus there. Just like a 'trap' a 'snare' - set by Satan the Devil. so you go on following after man, and his organisation, and his god, Satan. And see where it gets you in God's favour when the day of judgement comes.
Because you were given a witness 'to get out of her'. And now you cannot plead ignorance.
Good luck with that.