HI Howdy From Texas !!
Welcome to the forum, we are happy to have you among us:) i have also faded almost one year ago, so i know what you are going through . the best thing for you to do its to inform yourself as much as possible JWFACTS.COM is golden! it helped me so much to find TTATT . Its not easy i have lost all my family even though we are not DF'D but as i told my daughter yesterday we have to be true to ourselves , we cannot live life to please our families and put our desires on hold, if not you'll grow up feeling anger , resentment of a life that could have been. we all deserve to live the best life for ourselves!!
we live very close by so PM me if you like:)