I was a convert who first learned about the religion when I was twelve years old. A world run by goodness and justice under the auspices of God Almighty sounded good to me then—and still does. I studied with the Witnesses when I left home for college where I studied metallurgy. So I was hardly uneducated or emotionally deprived when I embraced the religion.
This was back in the 1970s when the Cold War was very real and the dangers of universal annihilation in a nuclear exchange were nothing to laugh about. I also liked the apparent of lack of racism I saw among the Witnesses I associated with in the American South, particularly since the churches had made little or no progress with this problem in their ranks.
I kept up with the “new light” adjustments and saw them as evidence of divine guidance and support—just as the Governing Body intended. I was disappointed by the failure of the 1975 expectations to bear fruit, but I stayed in the religion because I thought I had made a dedication to God and not to an organization. Furthermore, I was not socially isolated but had cultivated deep friendships with the Witnesses I knew first in Alabama and later in Colorado and California. I liked participating in the door-to-door canvassing work, attending the meetings, as well as having a share in other congregation activities. In short, I was content and had implicit faith in the Governing Body and their appointed officers.
It was the November 1, 1995 issue of The Watchtower and its study article about the generation that planted the first seeds of doubt in my mind. Even then it took years before those seeds sprouted and I seriously questioned my beliefs. I subsequently was disfellowshipped and it was during my efforts to be reinstated that I saw the organization as a counterfeit which was in the hands of vicious hypocrites whose knowledge of the Bible was “inadequate, incomplete and insufficient” as I told my judicial committee.
I have no intention of ever setting foot in a kingdom hall or attending any gathering of Witnesses again. I’m finished with the organization. Yes, there are some of its beliefs I have kept because I believe there is scriptural support for them. But that, give thanks, is all I will share with the WTS and its followers.
Quendi