I sometimes feel ashamed that I didn't come to the realizations others did on their own. I was born and raised in and although I thought some things weren't right, it was all I knew and I didn't know better. Chalked it up to human error or that god'll correct it in time.
Somebody made me watch a show critical of JWs. John Ankerberg? That show did not make me think. I just assumed they were using misinformation. But one of the guys on the show was selling books. A guy my dad had run into on a few occasions (dad's arch nemesis is what I used to think of the guy). One of the books was Ray Franz's book and I remembered the scandal when he defected and it piqued my interest.
I ordered Crisis of Conscience. It really opened my eyes to the history, the internal workings, the floundering on beliefs. And because of who he was, he had way more credibity to me than some Christian apologists who were part of Satan's org (in my mind) and trying to trick me. Once I saw the JWs were man-made with no godly backing, I couldn't return.
So Ray Franz.
This board and the "apostates" here helped me feel more normal for rejecting those JW beliefs and helped me to find so many other wrongs.