Hi all,
It's been over 3 months since I first posted after years of lurking:
http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/jw/friends/253883/1/My-Story-a-kinda-newbie-from-the-UK#.UkHoPT-yzA8
And what a 3 months it's been.
I think I mentioned about my wifes poor health. It's been a constant issue for us, exacerbated by our wonderful but hyper active kids. So meetings were more than just a slight problem. Although I once admitted doubts, my wife became tearful as the 'new world' was a big hope to her.
Anyway, around late June she caught me on here. And became worried again. So I said I'd try not to go on here again. She asked me to speak to an elder which I did. He came over and we chatted. I explained my doubts over new light. He likened our time to the Noahs time. And I pointed out that the witnessing work JWs do is not the same and that if Noah did preach it was a message of condemnation. Not hope. I pointed out that there was no scope for any survivors outside the animals, Noah and his family in Gods offer to Noah. No space, and no food in the ark. He went dead quiet as he thought it through. Then making his excuses he left me with James 1:6:
But let him keep on asking in faith, not doubting at all, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven by the wind and blown about. In fact, let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from Jehovah; he is an indecisive man, unsteady in all his ways.
Nice!
At the DC in July my wife asked me to pay particular attention to the apostate talk, taking the kids off so I could listen without distraction. What a nasty talk that was.
After the DC we went to a meeting. I'd had a dust down with a over zealous MS some weeks before about ordering my wife out of the hall the moment my youngest made a sound (so loving) and I'd been asked to take them to the second school in the future. So at this meeting I did, and the CoBE charged in and ordered me out. So I left and waited in the car. Just couldn't be bothered anymore. That my friends turned out to a be a very fortuitous event!
When we went home I told my wife and she broke down. I found out she'd been harboring doubts. Not doctrinal stuff like me (well not so much) but more on the lack of love in the congregations she's been in whilst in the Truth.
We talked. And talked. And kept talking. She is reading CoC right now as I type, she now agrees this is not the Truth and we're fading together! We're planning Xmas and birthdays and all the such.
We know they'll be problems ahead. Her family are already asking questions. But I'm no longer facing this on my own!
I'm so happy, a bit worried about what is going to happen but we'll face it together.
Yay!