Kariott,
You are more important than your vows. I'm glad you can come here and vent.
A class about basic computer skills and the internet would be a good idea, too, just to give you a little more confidence around the PC.
I was married to an abusive man. I grew up in a JW family believing I would never be able to leave/divorce who I married. It took lots of courage to leave, dealing with feelings of having failed - but I did leave. If you are being mistreated, please consider leaving your husband one day permanently. I repeat - you are more important than your vows.
gorgia