We were driving in her car a couple of weeks ago, (the night I have visited her KH) and she told me, that she was going to postpone her November trip to Italy; instead, she was thinking about going when the New System was here. I asked her amusedly: "Are there going to be airplanes on the New System?"... She responded: "well.... We are going to be using our 100% of our brains". I would have like to respond, "please use at least a 1-% of your brain now".
I got home and I couldn't fall sleep thinking about the last said. So.... I started to imagine myself been a JW and how it could it be for me.
First, I imagine myself thinking with my daughter's frame of mind, assuming I would be like her. As I am a different person though, perhaps, with my mind been so inquisitive, I would then be wondering how I could go to Italy or other countries of Europe... cause for sure, I would like to go visit Europe again since I love it when I was traveling. I would then assume I will get wings, then I would have been an angel. Or if someone else is there flying me to Europe, then I would have to remember the doctrine of the Guardian Angels the nuns talked about to me when I was little. Or else believe is Satan himself taking me to Italy to steal the treasures I desire.
I think I would like to bring the statue of Michael... I would cover it from the waist down. Boy I would need strong wings wouldn't I? I know, I know, I know! Maybe 'dungbeetle' would tell me: "P.L.E.A.S.E don't be ridiculous Yadira". I will also steal The Madonna. I would cut it in half and take only Jesus with me.... (Remember I'm a JW, not a Catholic). Forgive me God, I'm only imagining if I was one of the dumbest ones who use 0% of their brain.
Then I would like to go to the Princess Diana headquarters and try her wardrobe on me... not the jewels, I'm not a jewel person, but I love fashions... you know I'm so wordily still, even though I am a JW. That and much more would have stay with me... I would use all kinds of excuses for it... I think I wouldn't confess my sins to elders, since I'm a free spirit.... And besides I'm an "aggressive passive" I would just pretend many behaviors... for instance, I would be saintly. A devil in disguise. Cause I know all JW must carnie their own characteristics with them, except they get compress inside and that could be the reason of the high % of suicidal. So I assume, I wouldn't be suicidal... but I would want to give them hell as I depart at the end. I'm talking to the hypocrites and to WT viejos infernales. I would like my JW comrades. I would have many nice friends in the KH and I would probably love them to pieces.
Continuing with my imagination about the New System, I would assume (me been a thoughtful person), that I would be thinking I would be lonely. My no JW husband would have disappeared in Armageddon. It will be hard to find the brothers and sisters since this Earth is huge and we are an insignificant number. Besides, it will be harder to find a partner to share the goodies with. If I could only be lucky to find Reborn2000 in Italy. Ups, I can't use this word, I mean fortune, ups not that one either... Oh, well... whatever word the jerks old men in Brooklyn have tell us to used... (Excuse the language). But if I find Reborn2000 I will drop David, who needs him? Cause if I find a stupid jerk Elder Italian male chauvinist, I would just ignore him. (Again excuse the language). I think I would then prefer to be like the 'good thief' and steal my salvation from besides Jesus Crucified, since I am such a worm and big sinner, (for real). All of this I would be thinking or rather reasoning with my only 1% of my brain or rather 0% cause the WT are already using 199% of all JW's brain, as they have sucked it from all adherents to this cult. They keep their brains hosted in Brooklyn. ((((((((Ufff)))))) They worse than the Talibanes. God have mercy on us all!
Well that is what I would be thinking about and I wouldn't dare tell a soul in my KH.... I would rather be like Nicodemus, "a lurk on this forum", so none of you would tell me I'm not suppose to be here jet.... That I'm on the company of 'apostates' so that I have to leave... Noooo! I would be e mailing Simon and Angharad... until my time is ripe to make my out come and start my first thread. I don't like people pushing me to be something before my time. So my dear ones, all of you would be my hero.
But (!) before my outcome, I would still pretend for a while, go the meetings and as they would chose me to have a part on the meetings, one particular night, instead of giving the regular rehearsed dumb answers they put in the mouth of many people insulting their intelligence, I would respond with many others intelligent answers, the ones they run off like wolfs. I would assumed I could only give few intelligent answers before they take the microphone away from me, so I have to practice to speak fast and better be on a Spanish congregation talking my own language... and if they confront me and threat me with dfs me... I would then do what hyhlander told the elders he would do...
After that, I would then thank God for not letting me be with my 100% brain on the New System because then I would really be damned burning in Hell: I mean the New System.