The cognitive dissonance is taking it's toll
Proverbs 13:12 GNT
When hope is crushed, the heart is crushed, but a wish come true fills you with joy.
Clearly a crushed heart cannot feel joy but saddness. We must rebuild hope through love
"Various spiritual teachings say that there are only two fundamental emotions: love and fear. For the body, this is true. All mammals, including humans, have two opposing hormonal responses to stimuli. Threatening stimuli cause an increase of stress hormones—adrenaline (short term ) and cortisol (long term ). Soothing or reassuring stimuli cause an increase in oxytocin. " (fear brings stress on the body... love sooths )
The only answer to fear is love.. love of self first ... then to others
I'm not saying I have any easy answers but this is the place we must reach...
there are many good comments on this thread as to why ex-JW's are in a dreadful place
Changing our thought patterns and thinking is not easy.
I will never forget my fathers words (went through WW2 ) so I think he knew a thing or two about fear
Another person was belittling a person to my father saying " his nerve trouble is all in his head "
These following words ring so true today for me , what Dad sayed.. "Well your head is a pretty damned important part of your body.. don't you think ?