When people question their beliefs as a JW they always reach a point where they ask "what about spirits, the bible/god/ spirit realm must be true!"
Some people can be stuck on that issue for some time... What about mediums, magic, spirit attacks, demons??? etc etc. I thought of all the cases I knew of, a pattern emerged... I wasn't in any of them. I hadn't seen a single one. It was as simple as that for me.... OR WAS IT...
A couple of months ago, maybe 2 or 3. I was working late in the hospital I was at. It was early winter, cold and dark. The hospital was old and ugly. The corridors are lit by automatic lights to save money. They detect someone walking beneath and turn on. It was gone midnight, I was the last person on this floor and I closed the library door behind me. I began walking down the corridor alone in a quiet part of the hospital, above the A+E and trauma departments. I had been working in the library preparing for exams and my mind was busy with thoughts of exams and planning. Tiredness had once again overcome me, we work shifts all day as everyone else, then evenings are our time to study. It had been this way for over 2 years now, it makes the soul permenantly wearisome and fatigued.
As I walked into perpetual darkness, the lights came on some seconds behind me, the delay was slower than my pace, so I seemed to be pursuing darkness, not light. They clicked on far too long after I passed them. I had not even noticed, before long I was alone, mid corridor, in darkness. Nothing but the distant lit corridor junction ahead of me. A feeling came over me, so strange and potent it took my whole concentration. I had my stylish but far too large headphones on, they were releasing a spirit disturbing sound, some electronic dance music, far too loud for my tympanic membrane and I knew it. My mind had been on my month ahead, the revision, the hours needed, the deficit of hours I had. But all that ended abruptly..... half way down the corridor of perpetual night ....and my delayed back lighting.
I suddenly became aware of the sensations on the skin, the itching of my nerves, my hyper acuity of sound and vision ...... I heard my heartbeating.
As I looked left, I passed a row of windows, the winter clouds were moving fast and high, occasionally obscuring a bright but smaller winter moon. I felt enclosed, there was nowhere to go... my subconscious did the math for me, my brain was still on exam revision..... The answer to the calculation was... DEMONS.
but hold your horses a moment, you jittery yellow bellies....
My brain had realised that I was walking down the hallway of an old hospital, in darkness, making lots of noise and something was not right, I for some reason was not scared or bothered about possible .....demons or ghosts.... The old me would have been, and my body found this weird. My indoctrinated senses were asking me why I wasn't scared.... It was just a corridor, just dance music, just some darkness.... and just me....
or was it....
SNARE X
no really it was , just me..