Of course it's up to you what route you follow and I like to read your musings but I think you'll end up either swapping one religion for another - K99
I was a convert, I have been a practicing Jew, and JW, niether is for me. I will not be taking up a new religion soon, chemistry is my love and passion, but not the scientology cult. I am happy being part of JWN for now and not joining another cult is a priority. One can believe in God with out being a member of an organisation.
Of course one can beleive in God without being a member of an organisation. I just think that where you intellectually at the moment is incredibly wooly and that over time you will form more concrete conclusions that will either take you back to something where the Bible has a relevance as the inspired word of God with all it's teaching on Jesus etc. or you will move to a far more secular viewpoint.
I assume as well by scientology you mean the "cult" of blindly following science as opposed to the religion of Scientology (Hubbard and all that...)