thedog, what would happen if you let your local BOE know that you would no longer serve on judicial committees? Would they find that acceptable?
Would they simply dismiss you with a "Oh, thats fine old boy, you don't need to participate in those nasty judicial meetings anymore"
Highly doubtful. I'm sure you know this, but you are simply a cog in the machinery. I was too at one point. What happened when I was found out as a someone who no longer believed in 1914 or the blood policy? I was quickly removed, tossed aside, and business continued as usual for that body of elders.
No matter how you try to spin it, you are simply a part. If you break, you are replaced. Only parts that meet "JW code" are used, the rest are thrown away.
I realized that while I was only a small cog in massive Watchtower machinery, I was participating in the underlying abuse. It wasn't overt, I wasn't a dick demanding people answer for missing meetings, and I was commended as one of the "good guys" by publishers. But when my number was called for a judicial committee, I was expected to play the part of a spirital abuser, passing judgement on my fellow man.