Amen to that frazzled UBM..Staying qiuet and patiently trying to awaken my wife is my daily struggle as well.
Suavojr- I do not believe you are lying to yourself. It is true you are pretending, but for good reason, plus you are not planning to do this indefinitely. I am not looking forward to the day my parents disown me, and my wife is shattered and broken over my decision. I hope she would follow me, or at least respect my decision. If not then it is what it is. I cannot live a lie for much longer for my own sanity, and to give my kids a choice and another voice to hear. Right now I am silenced and nuetered by the WT. In all likelyhood, my family will blow me into the elders for apostasy, and when that occurs, I will have to decide whether to go and tape it a-la Raypublisher, or simply refuse to play their game and ignore them. Maybe if I go it will do more for my wife: for her to at least see I tried. Either way I will be there for you as best I can when that time comes ok? and Im sure you will be there for me when my hour comes. Hang in there in your journey my friend.. It has only begun :)