I 'faded' away. Reason? I have an only daughter who is still in the 'truth', ultimately I don't think it would be fair to her to make the clean break that my heart is desirous of. I am a mother - I still need to be there for her, even though it would be her closing the door - it would be me instigating it by my actions.
4 more days till I leave the Watchtower
by Leander 33 Replies latest jw friends
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truthseeker1
I am tearing myself away as we speak (Type). Its too late to fade for me, but with my Father-in-law being the PO, there wasn't a real way to fade. I'm the only one in MY family that is/was a witness, so I still have family and I can make new friends. I never really had friends in the troof, excluding my wife. I would make a bunch of worldly friends, and ahve to lose them. At least that cycle is over. I try to look into the future, not immediate future cuz that is going to suck, but a few years from now when I can be a normal person. It was very hard for me to look around at everyone else living a normal, happy life. There I was, miserable going around to happy people telling them how miserable they should feel about their way of life. I'm just glad its over. I am upset about the situation with my wife, though.
I know she has to stay with me until I Fornicate on her(hopefully not "on" her, cuz that would be kinda rude) for us to get a scriptual divorce. I don't want to leave her, but I know what she wants in life. She wants to raise a family that is in the troof together, no divisions. She won't even have kids with me. She says she doesn't know me and is afraid of me. She doens't want to sleep in the same room as me. I am not going to have a marriage like that. She isn't happy and I am not happy. I'm just going to let her have the life she wants by leaving. I'll still support her until she can make it on her own, but I can't stay in that situation. We are going to get a legal divorce, then I can move on with my life and when I find someone new, she can move on with hers. Its a bad situation, but the only option with a happy ending for both of us. We are young (25/22) and have no kids, so it is an alright time to do this.
I'm making it quick, because I don't really give a F*ck what they(society) think of me(only my wife). It is hard if YOUR family is all brainwashed.
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I can understand what you must be feeling. You are lucky in a way that there are no kids involved. Your wife can make her own mind up. But kids are a different matter. When a couple with children divide over the truth then the kids are bound to be hurt!
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leander,
when i stepped down as a m.s. i typed a simple letter stating:
"i no longer am able to fullfill my responsibilites as a m.s. and am stepping down from this position immediately."
i drew little question with it, as i handed it directly to the c.o.
you could add, the other things as well you wish to be removed from.
i know the elders got some heat, but i escaped without much to-do.
just my 2 cents hope that helps.