It has been over a year since I offically stopped caring about and going to JW meetings. Prioor to this time I had tons of responsibility that drained every once of time I had. Like any father I had family matters to attend to. We have our own business which can be stressful as well as the fact that I had intense responsibilities at the congregation... I was literally falling apart at the seams during this time. I had:
1. A thyroid condition
2. Orthostatic Hypotension
3. Off the chart stress level
4. Migraine Headaches
5. I was 6ft and 1/4 inches and wweighed at my lowest point 131 pounds
6. Depression
7. Weird tremors in my extremities
My wife was always concerned as you could imagine. The sight of my own children annoyed me because I knew it meant they would demand time that I did not have. Then the mysterious fainting for no apparent reason kicked in. Later it was discovered that it was Vasovagal Syncope. I fainted once out in service after getting out my car and damn near cracked my skull open. I was a freaking mess. Well around the tailend of all this happening I began the doubting and a very quick descent from Elder to the loser who was more concerned about his family than Jehovah. I stopped attending these meetings and dealt with Mother and Father and Brother super dub issues etc... then ultimately I wrote a letter of Disassociation and I was out of there. I was 35 years old with the ailments of someone twice my age!!!
What is amazing is that in about 1 years time I:
1. Am no longer on my Thyroid medications
2. No longer have any of the symptoms associated with Orthostatic Hypo. No longer on the meds as of yesterday
3. Stress Testing done. No more issues
4. No more Migraines
5. I didn't grow anymore, but I have gained 42 pounds. (New hobby is being a gym rat)
6. Depression... What Depression
7. Tremors were related to my stress and varietuy of other issues. Now gone
So here I am at 36 soon to be 37 and I feel the best I ever have in my freaking life. My doctor tells me, "Whatever it is you have been doing continue! Once you have figured it out, I will need you to write me a full paper on what changes you made so I can tell others as if it was my idea!" He laughed I laughed and I did give him a brief explanation about my exit from a high-control group. He discussed some stuff with me and I left. I got in the car and had this amazing feeling of happiness sweep over me! I started to feel all choked up and then realized I was freaking HAPPY!
On my way home I stopped along the road at my favorite pasture with the same cows that are sometimes there. They were not there this time, but they may be there tomorrow? Who knows. I look forward to finding out though!
just wanted to share