Well its been a while since my doubts were first realized. Ive been through hell mentally, but no where near what some on this site and those lurking have been through. I got lucky, if you believe in that sort of thing. I have steadily been revealing many truths about WT to wife and she agrees. She loves our friends and fights for them, but i can tell her desire to remain a witness is waning. And you know what? We dont fight as much. We dont bicker and bitch about how he or she should treat one another. For me that was always a stumbling block. Now we express ourselves freely--our fears, our doubts, When i spend too much money like a jackass (;-))...Anything. It is one of the simple most joyous things to know my wife doesnt just love me because Jehovah says we need to, but because she truly sees integrity in me despite my mistakes and flaws. Our love has grown. I feel like my goals are more valuable. Mostly to become a better man, husband, and father to my two wonderful and lovely little girls. Ive had to drop down and be a child again, Finally! To see this great big world out there, and to know in many aspects my kids, my wife and I are on equal levels.
So whats next? Moving possibly to suburbs of orlando fl. Maybe. But as for us? To learn all we can and become enriched in knowledge of the world we live in and, perhaps, build some fantastic experiences and memories together. My love for myself, my family and friends, and most of all, just humans has grown astronomically. Knowing there are no boundaries but to help others and love them and be there...with no prearranged agendas or "Jehovah" said-so's.
Life and love are tough and beautiful, black and blue--and I am finally embracing it.
For all of those who are scared, alone, hurting, losing--Keep up the fight for your salvation, your freedom! We are all here for you.
Jon Preston
Former Watchtower Cleric