When under the 'spell' of the WT I held myself aloof and apart
from all other humans not of the cult, and in the cult there was
no real personal connections, just the appearance of association
that was supposed to replace any real community or deep loyalty
to anyone, it was a group-think , group membership, with levels
of acceptance and always conditional, so not only did I isolate myself
from intimacy within the organization , but I abandoned any hope
of connecting honestly with anyone in the community at large.
Very stunting and isolating, which is why so many cannot feel "normal"
when they manage to escape the cult.