Paradise was such a nice thought...frolicking with wild life, being able to pursue delayed interests... But I didn't see how "paradise" could work. My head would start to explode when I started thinking how we would have to trade services and trades in order to live like the pictures in the books. Then eventually it would be just like life today...except it would be like living in one giant, bland earthwide Bethel. Beth-hell.
No, I didn't see myself there, no matter how hard I tried to do that. And besides as a teen, a CO told our congregations that only 1/3 of it were going to make it. Thinking about that now, I'm sure that damaged any sort of hope I had in everlasting life.