I realize that they didn't... when I saw how scared the elders were of me just differing about a cerain matter ( not even a main feature of WT doctrine), well, it made my blinkers slip just enough that I HAD to think. Slowly, slowly.
It was sickening that they were not free to talk to me or look at the bible with me--WITHOUT THE STENCILED PATTERN!
It took a while to realize that if I had a disagreement, I had to stuff it like everyone else.
I couldn't do it anymore--