My parents delusions are not my problem. If that makes me a bad person, I really dont care. I will help them however I can, but they will not move in, nor wiill I give them money. I view it like giving money to a junkie. I am trying to fade and have not been out in field service for months. Last Saturday, I explained some of the reasons to my wife. I told her that I feel uncomfortable teaching things to people as facts that I am unsure of, or are not true. I gave her the examples of a global flood, with some details why, the tower of Babel being built 100 years after and why it is impossible, and how 144000 cannot be a literal number. She already knows my issues with the blood doctrine. My point was that I cannot teach things that I do not believe to be true. At the end, she understood somewhat and did not know what to say. We are still on good terms, and I attend most meetings so far. I know that sooner or later she may want me to speak to the elders so that they can help me with my doubts. She does not view me as a raving apostate, but as someone who is "trying". If she asks me to go to them, I plan to agree and share similar reasons for my inactivity with them. They may not care about the flood stuff, but when I talk about the 144,000 thing or Blood issue they may move for the DF. I hope they do. Nothing so far has truly broken through to my wife but me getting DF for trying to "get help" for some doubts may be what she needs to see how cruel and bizzare this group is. It has worked for others.
My point? I cannot have Die hard JW parents around to counteract my plans. I cannot have them indoctrinating my kids on a higher level.
We are not in a position to help them if we wanted to. My whole childhood I never was given money or many gifts or anything else. When I was in highschool, I couldnt even get decent clothes or sneakers unless I worked for them, so I got a paper route. They gave me 5 dollars a week when I was 16! I am not affluent now, in fact my wife is thinking of picking up extra work on top of the daycare she co-owns. We have 2 kids, work full time, are very busy and tired. I dont have thousands or even hundreds to give even if I wanted to.
My whole childhood, EVERY assembly was talked about as maybe being the last one on the car ride home, I remember him saying that Bill Clinton would usher in the GT, I wont make it to High school, get married, have kids etc. He was and is still the #1 person for scouring the news looking for ways the WT interpretation of Bible prophecy is coming true. My parents recently told me that the reason they never had anymore kids is because they thought the end was so near in the early 90s. Looking back at the literature from that time, along with the Generation teaching, its not hard to see how gullibe people who think God is speaking through the GB could be fooled. He actually got excited by the announcement that the toes on Daniels Image mean nothing! That should give some Idea He never planned for retirement because there was NO WAY the system could have lasted this long. Its the mentality I was raised around. Its 2014 and no Armageddon is apparent. Steve Lett talks about JWbroadcast being used in the YEARS ahead! If they were students of WT history, they would have taken the "END IS NEAR" pronouncements with a grain of salt.
I dont mean to sound mean, but they will reap what they have sown. I do not think they will want to live with an "apostate" anyways. I will help them apply for public assistance, find jobs, etc but they must take responsibility. I cannot bear their heavy burden. I will not let the WT f*&k me over this way too.