I'd take that photo and make it my FB profile picture, just to piss off my "former" family. Cause I tell you, any parents that would treat me the way your parents have treated you, sure as h*ll wouldn't be called "family" to me. They would be called "crazy cruel cultists" that I would never want to see again.
Instead of weeping for what could of been, you should pat yourself on the back for getting your family away from such toxic individuals....because that's exactly what they are - TOXIC.
Dad's in the hospital? He's had a stroke? They are all sad and regretful? Well now, I guess they've reaped what they've sewn. Let the fine loving Congregation full of their "spiritual brothers and sisters" come visit them in the nursing home and wipe their azzes. Ha! (like that's ever going to happen!) After all, that's what the WT has continually piped into their brains, that YOU are DEAD, and that the Congregation is their family, right?
I feel for you and your situation, but not for the people who have inflicted so much pain upon you. Concentrate on your current family who actually treat you as such, and forget about the people who tossed you out like trash over 25 years ago.
- Wing Commander