I don't know what category I fit into on this post. I considerr myself a JW, although those 'In' do not. My relatives believe that I am a JW.
I have been hurt to the very core of my soul by those claiming to be JWs, not once, but many times. So much so, that I don't attend meetings any longer, but I do listen to the meetings via phone hookup. I don't agree with much being said about elders and the GB. The 3-hour event that took place via streaming vid (I listened to it at home) was one of the most depressing and disappointing bunch of talks I have ever heard. To me, this was not divinely-inspired, not by a long shot.
Some of the cruelest and most heartless people are JWs, which is why I told the last elders that were here that Satan and the demons have infiltrated the org, and I no longer can vouch for the presence of God within the WT. Of course they think I am an apostate, I am not, as I have never left by beliefs.
I feel sorry for the R&F. They appear as 'sheep without a shepherd, being skinned and thrown about'. So many poor and needy, so many families destroyed, so much money donated but no one knows where it is. I don't blame Jehovah for this...it is the fault of a shameless board of executive officers...trickling down to cold-hearted elders.
I love the bible, Jehovah and Jesus... I am in awe and admiration of His Heavenly Organization, but the earthly org needs help, lots of it.
So, where does that place me? I don't know...no friends, not much family (I am the only Witness of my relatives, my children left)...But I still have faith that all will turn out the way Jehovah has planned.
Here and other places on the web, such as this, I can see I am not the only one who has been hurt, or has questions. Thank you all for your posts. I hope this has answered your questions...if not, it's because I really don't know what I am.
Take Care,
AB