I have lots of questions, too. It's very good that you're thinking and questioning.
if jw isn't the right religion, then which one is?
In order for that to be a valid question, it first has to be shown that there is a "right religion", and I don't know whether there is. I'm still seeking the answer to that.
2. i can't find any other religion who has broken thru all the racial barriers and teach the same stuff worldwide....In all honesty I do trust "most" jw if I were to stay at their house or vice versa.
The truth about the "trust" thing is that I trust almost all my assocates (workmates, etc.) and would stay at their houses and not worry about them stealing from me. I trust all Mormons and Baptists and Catholics I know as much as I would any JWs I know. I don't think JWs are any better or worse than most others in that area.
Even if JWdom is exemplary in 'breaking thru the racial barrier', it stil is a hypocritical, deceptive religion that tries to hide its past and is guilty of false prophecy and has teachings that don't make sense. The JW leaders don't want the rank and file to read anything outside their writings because they know what they're trying to hide.
"They teach the same stuff worldwide" because members aren't allowed to so much as question their teachings. They're all forced to believe the same stuff, and most of it has been shown to be balogne. They're presently rebranding and dropping a lot of the belief system that they taught "worldwide" a few years ago. Teaching the same stuff worldwide does not make it right. They teach it and JWs have to swallow it. They currently teach their "overlapping groups" generation doctrine worldwide. Does that mean it's the truth? They taught their older "generation" concepts worldwide. Did that make those teachings right?
3. If some of you don't believe in the organization, why attack it or stand outside assemblies etc trying to spread the word of being against them, what benefit is this?
By far, most of us don't do that. But I'm not saying it's wrong. Is it wrong to speak out against lies, deception, hypocrisy, etc.? And, don't forget, the org has a history of 'spreading the word against' the rest of the world. Why should it be OK for them to speak against others, but not OK for the others to speak against them?
4. I have read and seen throughout history that they could have wrong teachings and that yes they have been wrong in the past about some things, jw normally say well we changed and the light got brighter. What is a good reply to that??
First, the context of the scripture they use in Proverbs about the light's getting brighter is not referring to an increase in understanding of doctrine. Second, there is no light that gets brighter for them as if they are progressively understanding the Bible better. They're simply wrong and they take another guess. In order for them to be able to say the light got brighter, they'd have to prove their current understanding is correct or at least better than the teaching it replaced; they can't do that.
5. Most JW don't even read the bible, they just automatically think its the truth and follow it no matter what. If I bring up a question to an elder they auto think I'm against it, why is this?? Honestly ....
Because they're clueless, ignorant, lacking in reasoning ability, self-righteous, smug, overly-confident, and in many cases, outright stupid. I know; I have family in and I've dealt with JWs for decades. They're scared of questions because their teachings can't stand up to them. Why do you think the Bible Highlights part is designed the way it is? It is designed to allow for no questions and only brief comments that support the org's current teachings.
I have so many doubts
I do, too.
Wish I had all the answers
I do, too. I'm seeking, questioning, searching, exploring. If I ever find what I think are answers, I will share them.
Hang around and keep thinking and questioning and seeking.