Hey!
Thanks for all the replies! I did not expect so many. Sorry for my late reaction but I was away for the weekend (to my parents) and didn't want to visit this site at my parents house, would just be too weird.
Mackin: Having sex every night....sounds good heh :) no seriously i want to state to everyone: this is not what i normally do! It was just a one-time thing (until i bump into the next hot guy :) (Elsewhere: where do you live? :P)) and TR for diseases and pregnancy... I was safe, not sorry , so don't worry that much! For eyegirl: my sister does know my situation and is really disappointed in it, but she says she understands and just hopes that i will return when i am older (and wiser :)) I don't have any JW friends, I have found my worldy friends so much more trustworthy; after i faded they never gave me a call...not once :( I saw some former JW friends today and it was really weird. Kind of reminded me of what i have lost, but I have gained so much more. The others: thanks for the advice, and I will definitely mail some of you guys!
I saw my sister today (but only with other people around) and it actually didn't give me the feeling that she is going to do anything. The best way indeed is to deny, I agree with that, and well after leaving the JWs i kind of got used to the lying-part in not trying to hurt my parents feelings. But I cannot, however, say to the elders that my sister lied, that i didn't tell her anything (unless she of course did lie). I'd rather be Df'd than hurting my sister. I of course will deny.
I am wondering however what the elders of my hometown will do though. I have talked to them so many times before (i smoked, smoked weed, slept in the same bed as my at that time boyfriend (and i didn't even tell them i had sex with him, only that we shared the bed). They did ask me questions as: when, where and how. But i never told them anything. I never got into trouble though, they always let me go. I guess I was lucky there. About my family: my dad is a hero. He pays for my entire life (college fees and life expenses), so at first i was really afraid that he would cut my financial support. But when i told him i didn't want to be a JW anymore, he told me that he was sorry about that, and that he understands. He also told me that whatever i do he will always love me and I will always be welcome in his home. And even though he sees that my education and life on campus are the causes of me leaving the JW (according to him), he will never stop paying. Me being in college means so much for him, he is really proud of it. He is really wonderful in this situation. A few weeks ago he told me: "Do you have a boy-friend? Cause if you do: please bring him home, he will always be welcome here". And he indeed meant a worldly boy-friend. I had just broken up with my boy friend the day before so I didn't think it necessary to tell him that (not to hurt him). But next time when i have a boy-friend, I will definitely take him home.
For now I will indeed wait and see what happens. If she tells the elders: I will deny. But I will also be disappointed in my sister. I am still confused though, it all seems like one big game, with me being the only person who doesn't know the rules.
Does any of you know whether some still JW people read this site? I am terrified that someone will recognise me. I hope (and would pray for it if i still prayed :)) that no one will find out.
Thanks again!
Eppie
