First lets get you off that feeble ledge your standing on, you may
slip and we don't want that. Take some deep breaths. I have been
trolling this forum for at least two to three years and myself have only
gotten the courage to make a few posts here and there. So off the
ledge, get down so we can talk.
There are many strong
contributors here who can and genuinely will take interest to help you
through the darkest of hours, Many will and can offer encouraging word in the tunnels of darkness we all seem to share in the coming
and goings in our dealings with Jehovahs Witnesess and her people. So troll through the
forums and seek guidance.
Also do not forsake the valuable tool you have in front of you. Your Bible.
John 3: 16, simple, read it slow. "For God
loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so
that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.
"
Simple, believe...nothing more to it. Yes there are commandments and other nuances that Jehovah wants us to do, there are guidelines just like everything else, but having doubts, asking questions,
second guessing is not casting aside belief. You think Jehovah stops
loving you because of these things, not on anyone's life...God so
loved the world. When you get kids, you will completely understand this,
the scripture will make sense. The sacrifice, the love that Jehovah has
for us is insane, Hes nutz about you, hes crazy about you, God wrote
this book with sixty six books, written over hundreds of years, by people of different educations, different regions of the world, with one message, HE LOVES YOU...In fact he loves you so much that when Jesus died on the Stake/Cross whatever sits write with you, that Jehovah already knew about all the sin that would be in the world and annulled it. There is nothing Jesus death doesn't cover..nothing, so unless you just plain outright constantly deny Jehovah at every angle, you haven't committed the unforgivable sin, sounds like you in the right place searching, searching for answers looking at your God and wanting to know more.It takes courage to post, for some its easy, but for some it takes great inner courage to articulate into words what you have locked deep inside, and for making your post I applaud you.Mathew 7:7 "Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking,
and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to
you."
Walk through your issues and tackle them one by one, you cant knock on all the doors at once, its overwhelming, take it slow, walk through them slowly and one by one.
