You said dthat your aunt lost a son to fire and is comforted by the hope of resurection. this is what is interesting to me , our familys and friends shun us ar thoes of us that are df'ed or da'ed and i wonder if they wopuld be happier if we were to die in a accident or somthing so that we would be resurected if they care that much i wonder how they cn practice shunning its the one thing in this world that depresses me i never thought my family would take as strong of stand as they have the only one that i talk to is my dad who is a elder so i guess he thionks its ok for him but i havent seen my nephews for so long that im starting to think they wouldnt even rember me and it sucks i used to say that my nephews were the children i would never have and now i dont have them any more but as much as it hurts me its not enough to make me go back ok ill stop now b 4 i get carried away