rnovello,
this is a big place, and a lot of people here have known each other for a long time. it may seem as if they don't care, but i think everyone here does care about each other in different degrees because of our shared experience. everyone here has suffered loss of one kind or another, or endured tragedy (or abuse) of one kind or another.
you realize that if your grief is overwhelming, you need to talk to someone about it don't you? is there anyone in your life outside of this place who you can call and tell them what is happening with you? please don't think that because i ask that, i don't want to hear about your problem, or that i don't care. you may not believe this but i do. and judging from these posts, many others do also. sometimes that's all you need is to know that some person on this planet cares. but your saying you can barely function and you don't think you can take it anymore or do without her much longer is pretty profound, you know. and something that requires attention and intervention beyond a message board.
but if you really don't have anyone to talk to about it, or are dead set against talking to a counselor, then by all means, come here and let it all out. this really is a place where people can listen to each other, support each other, express their frustrations and fears and anguish. you are not alone... don't give up on you.
"We cannot live only for ourselves. A thousand fibers connect us with our fellow men; and among those fibers, as sympathetic threads, our actions run as causes, and they come back to us as effects."
-Melville, Herman
"We are human and therefore all human concerns are ours."
-Sam Hamill