I am just wondering, because I think for me it did. I am a woman with grown children,
so I am coming to these things from a different stage in life than many do, but since
leaving the WTS, I am on something of a quest to experience life and relationships in new
and expanding ways.
My latest new adventure was a TOOL concert. I went last night, and it was incredible.
The band was amazing, and experiencing the energy between them, the music, and the
crowd was a spiritual experience. And that was before the pot, something I had only tried
a couple of times before with no especially notable effects beyond feeling a little
lightheaded.
But this time, there was some synergy created in my brain between the music and the
psyco-active substance. I just closed my eyes and became absorbed into the music, until I
felt like I was the music, in an ever expanding landscape punctuated by flashes of light, in
which even with my eyes closed, I felt like I could still percieve everything around me, just
without the distraction of the garishness of optical input. It was transcendent, like nothing
I have ever experienced before. I have a hard time finding non-cliched phrases to describe
this, but I felt melded into everything and everyone. I think my mind was blown. Yes,
definitely blown.
I feel such an uplifting contrast between this experience and the total lack of any
spiritual feeling I had as a witness. My spiritual landscape in the WTS was all about nose-
to-the-grindstone, endure to the end, keep your focus small (only on society approved
things). It was a parched, barren spiritual life, at least to me. This new experience filled
me up, nourished me, and made me feel like spirituality might be something worth
pursueing. I know it doesn't mean I was visited by God, but it was the most mind
expanding thing that has ever happened to me.
Can anyone else relate to this? I would sure be interested in hearing about it.
truman