If I worked at a job, and I didn't report for two years, I think they would have tried to contact me during that time to see where I wanted my final paycheck to be sent. They probably would have asked for an explanation. Someone I worked with would have at least called me to find out what was up.
Since you just didn't do your job for two years as a Ministerial Servant, they probably had a long list of others just waiting to take your place.
I'm sorry if you are feeling down and out, but the organization is many times callous and unthinking in how it cares for "it's sheep". We all know that real concern and love for fellow JW's is very lacking and this is just another example.
You are welcome here. Hopefully, you will find a new direction in life. Sounds like you've been looking for two years at least.
Take care of yourself and be happy. Life is too short (and not because Armegeddon is coming)
For your information, even if you are a notorious apostate, as long as you don't come to the meetings and associating with other JWs, you are not going to get DF'd. According to the WTS, DFing is to keep the congregation clean. So if you don't go to the meetings and dirty the water, you'll be forever JW, technically.