Even Worse Day

by Sirona 48 Replies latest jw experiences

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  Sirona

  Imbue

  Swollen lymph nodes could just mean your immune system is working. It may not be cancer.

  You are right, and it is better to think more about that than think about the worse case scenario. Thanks

  Waiting, I'd like to see that program, it sounds good. Dark humour is a good way to verbalise feelings without coming across as overly morbid and I can see how that helps. I'm going to make a concerted effort to laugh more...they say that has theraputic properties in itself, don't they?

  My feelings toward the whole experience of having cancer are mainly sadness, fear and worry. I haven't really felt angry. I don't think "why me?" because my life has been very blessed overall and I tend to think that there are lessons to be learned from an experience like this. Since the operation in March, and my subsequent all clear, I've been going at 100 miles an hour! I have renewed appreciation for life itself. Just this morning, I stepped outside into the cold and rain, and noticed a nice clean smell in the air and enjoyed the sensation of the raindrops on my face. OK I suppose this paragraph reads a little bit "sickly", but it is how I feel. There was a point a couple of years ago when I wanted to die and it strikes me as ironic that dying is the last thing I now want....a big lesson I've learned is that if you wish for something, you might get it.

  Thanks Tina for the link, I will check that out.

  Thanks everyone else for your good vibes and hugs. Today I'm feeling slightly better, and you are all definately contributing towards that!

  Sirona
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  LittleToe

  A clean smell in the air???? Where you live?
  Hmmm - the wind must have changed direction

  May the roses keep blooming...

  ~sitting here radiating love and happy thoughts toward Sirona~
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  Sirona

  Hi LT

  Yes, believe it or not the air smelled quite sweet today. Combination of fresh breezes and rain I think. You are spoiled with your clean air - I'm probably desensitized to the smells here in NW England!

  So have you kept your beard then? I'd like to see it, when is the gathering being arranged for? ISP hasnt' said.

  Sirona
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  LittleToe

  I'm at a wedding in the Midlands on the 31st August, so on the 1st of September I'm going to be hanging around like a spare part, before I meet up with my wife to go on holiday. (The wedding is for my best man, who was DF'ed years ago, so she isn't coming). Are you around that weekend?

  It's possibly quite short notice, for a big bash, but I bet we can get some of the gang together.
  What about it, ISP?

  The goatie is growing back, as we speak - nearly two weeks old.

  Looking forward to meeting you, at last
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  Sirona

  Hi LT

  I think I'm OK for 1st September (depending on my test results next week - I might be in hospital). All being well, that would be OK.

  We could meet at the Manchester Trafford centre. It has some nice cafes/restaurants/bars.

  I'm 27 in September....on 14th. I'm free that weekend too because my boyfriend has to go away for that weekend with the T.A. I've been wondering how I'm going to celebrate my b-day, I was hoping the gathering would be then. The 1st is fine though if thats easier for you (I know you have to travel)

  Sirona
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  LittleToe

  Ah, I'm returning home before then, but I'm supposed to be speaking at a Christian Ex-JW conference in Wales, that weekend. I'm trying to squeeze in a ten day break, between two events.
  (Just to prove that there are ex-JW's beyond this board )

  If you're in hospital and up to it (on the 1st) I'll come visit, if you like. Otherwise, we have GOT to arrange something!

  Edited by - LittleToe on 9 August 2002 5:34:55
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  Navigator

  You are not alone! None of us are. However, you need more friends like Chelbie who "knows" that you are going to be O.K.. Count me as one of those!. Medical science is just beginning to discover what the mystics have known for ages; "Thoughts have power to create" especially in our own bodies. Some have said that our flesh bodies are merely reflections of thoughts we hold about ourselves. The source of most of our medical problems is our "stinkin thinkin". So, it is very important as to what you expect as an outcome. When dealing with petitions for healing, Jesus often responded with the phrase, "be it done to you as you believe". That could also be translated, "be it done to you as you expect". You body contains a marvelous pharmeceutical plant capable of producing medication 1000 times more effective than anything you could get from a physician. This plant is activated by your brain. It can produce poison, or it can produce powerful healing medication. The end product is within your power to control by your conscious thought. Worry and fear are not conducive to healing medication production. Choose wisely! The problem is that our mental "ruts" are pretty deep and I find myself slipping back into them from time to time. However, that is what friends are for. They help us climb out. You see, we really are all one and we can know the truth about each other. We are all made out of "God Stuff", perfect, whole, and complete. The real you in earthly terms is "stainless steel and teflon coated". Nothing harmful can touch the perfect you that God created, despite what you might have been taught by the WTBTS. I am envisioning you right now being bathed in the healing light of God's love. That light is perfecting everything that concerns you and every cell in your body is responding to that light. God Bless You!

  If you haven't already done so, check out a book by Bernie Siegal called, "Love, Medicine, and Miracles". You might also find some of the work by Depak Chopra helpful in reorienting your thought processes.
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  Angharad

  (((((Sirona))))

  Sorry I only just saw this thread - hope everything works out for you. We will have to meet up for a coffee or something sometime.
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  Simon

  coffee??

  I think we can manage something stronger for your birthday Sirona! How about we all get together at a nearby pub sometime?
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  Simon

  In my haste to order drinks I forgot to add ((((hugs)))) and I hope you have good news. We're thinking of you.