Wow Lin,
I know exactly what you are feeling. I was there a couple of years ago. You want to get it all straight and you want the answers all now.
Lynn, the first thing to do is just read the bible. I always tell people to just start with the book of John. Take the watchtower glasses off and just read it like a good book. Really get to know the character Jesus. As JW's we knew all "about" Jesus but we never really knew him personally. I cannot tell you what an impact it will have on you to just read it for what it is. Read it fresh.
You do not have to have all the answers to find peace and salvation. It is not all about knowledge. You cannot earn it. Infact the bible says so. Ephsians 2:8 says that it is by grace we are saved. A gift and not by works, so that no one can boast. Titus 3:5 says we are saved by his mercy not the rightous things we have done.
Jesus own words in John 5:39 has him saying that men study the scriptures to get eternal life, yet they never really knew him. So our job is to really get to know him and make him our best friend.
Believe me the rest will fall into place. We all have a very difficult time seperating religion from God. We tend to think of them as one in the same. You will not find a true religion that will save you. Only Jesus saves and that comes from knowing him and receiving the gift of life he has given us. You don;t have to do anything to receive a gift other than say thankyou.
Don't replace one religion with another. If you feel you need a neutral ground to go and worship, find a non-denominational church. I was very comfortable with that. An excellent place to start is with any Calvary Chapel. They are accorss the united states and as far as I can see and all the years i have attended, they are right on. There should be one in your area. That way you do not belong to any religion. All who attendd are merely Christians.
There is an excellent group in yahoo.........christian ex jehovah's witnesses
hhtp://groups.yahoo.com/group/christianexjehovahswitnesses
try the group. there is much support there.
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