Hi curiouschristy,
Stay the feelings will subside. Oh and Welcome!
Am I wrong for doing this?
by curiouschristy 14 Replies latest jw friends
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Mary
Cruzenheart said: if the Christian congregation that was taught by the apostles who were in turn taught directly by Jesus could become corrupt, why not a group of people in the 19th, 20th and 21st centuries? What makes the Society so special that it can't become corrupted?
I've asked many JWs this SEVERAL times when so-called "apostasy creeps into the congregation". If the first century congregation was the "purest" form of Christianity, basically, it only lasted 60 or 70 years before apostasy spread back then! Yet JWs today believe that the WTB&TS is the 'purest form of Christianity' today, and it's lasted what? 130 years without become corrupt? Not bloody likely.
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Kenneson
CC,
On my part, I never had those feelings. I was so glad to be out; felt so free. The burden was lifted. I never looked back, never felt guilty, never had a desire to return to Jehovism.
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SPAZnik
Do you feel guilty because of what the dubs say?
Why do you think they would be against it?
Do you feel guilty because you really think "God Himself", in full knowledge of your circumstances, would actually judge you as harshly as all that, just for visiting a website that enhances your life?
Your post got me analyzing my own lack of guilt feelings for posting here.
I think your feelings of guilt are *normal* all things considered.
Personally, I refuse to feel guilty about frequenting this site.
I think itz cuz, no matter what the dubs would like me to think, I just can't see God saying, "okay that's it, you posted on a place like jw.com and that is such an evil wicked thing that I am damning you here and now on the spot." And if he would say that, well, then I'm really not interested in serving a god as judgement as all that.
It's common sense to me to look at it in a "relative" sense.
Relative to other issues and evil wicked bad bad bad things that people are capable of,
both in and out of the dub religion, posting on jw.com just doesn't seem all that wicked to me.
If there is a God, and if he was hell-bent on judging me, I still think he would look at the big picture.
If I cared about guilt and judgement, I would only consider what God thought,
not what some rather biased people thought. It would be between me and Him only.
As it is, I don't care.
I sure am enjoying freedom from the guilts and judgements over every little nuance of life that the jdub philosophy promotes so wholeheartedly.
They have long reminded me of the "scribes and pharisees" that jesus called "offspring of vipers" because of their many rules and regulations that robbed the people of their joy. I have also discovered just how "alike" catholicism they are in this penchant for guilting people.
Wishing you the best in your journey. I hope it leads you away from guilt and towards happiness.
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Swan
I have been outta the society for over 10 years, but I somehow feel like I'm doing something wrong
Does anyone understand this, I hate I feel this way, why is this?
Does anyone else have similiar feelings?
Absolutely! After leaving the JWs I was researching Steven Hassan's Combatting Cult Mind Control book a several years back. I did briefly visit some apostate sites and was shocked to learn the truth about "The Truth." That was really good for me. I no longer feared Armageddon. I didn't wake up if a jet flew over or during a thunderstorm and think, "This is it!" like I first did when I left the cult.
Still, the apostate label was there, and I avoided associating with "apostates" for eight long years. Finally I was ready, and started actively reading all of the sites I could find. I soon realized that the label and the stories about "apostates" were just more WTBTS garbage too! They use that label to control us, to keep us afraid of each other even after leaving the cult, and to prevent us from coming together and organizing. The "apostate" label is their version of the Tower of Babel. Once I realized that, I stopped giving them that power over me too.
I hope this helps you to understand what you are going through.
Tammy