Well...she did it. My mother in law went back into the maw after disassociating herself in 99. Her elder husband had left her, and her kids and her grandkids wouldnt speak to her and it got to be too much. I heard yesterday that she went back and he is moving back in. And this just after she was here in June saying how she didnt believe in any of it, but tried to "force herself" and "convince herself" it was the "trooth" last spring so that her husband would come back, then came to her senses. She sat on my bed looking at pictures of my JW wedding, my JW shower, my JW picnics..and just balled at all the friends she has lost. It was too much for her.
She has sold out. Im the only one she will now shun. They will make her suffer for a year, sitting in the back, attending those meetings, being treated like shit. And she is willing to go through that humiliation to get her family back. Fuck them for doing this to her. Ironically, Im the only one who was always there for her when they all cast her out and now Im the sacrifice once again. And she didnt even have the balls to tell me herself she was doing this. I had to find out after everybody else did. I knew it tho...she wasnt returning my calls, my emails, my IMs...just silence for the last four months. I knew, I felt it. And now...I know. I pity her. Her conscience will be forever torn. But my children have once again lost their grandmother. We cant go to her home now, she cant come here. The children cant see their Aunt, Uncle and four cousins who are JWs because of me being shunned, and now the family is divided further. We were going to go to see grandma next summer, but now Im not welcome there, and I will be damned if I will split up the family because they have no tolerance or love for anyone but themselves. Fuck em all.
With the JWs in your life...there is no "moving on" ...not ever.