Realist:
so how in the world did you get the strength to leave the org???
When I look back, I have no idea, I just did it. I reached my tolerance band and left. I didn't realize I had the strength until I was already gone. Once I was gone, it was hard; I mean really hard. All my friends and family were gone in one day, but instead of feeling despair, it pissed me off. I couldn't believe that there were no roots to those relationships. It still makes me shake my head, that my mom can be so distant from me and cold, and I'm her firstborn daughter!! That still hurts even after several years....