All I can say is play it the way you see fit. We in the end are all judged independently. If you mistrust God and think hes trying to trick you you do so at your own disadvantage. Willingness again is the key to further enlightenment. You cant put the cart before the horse. First believe.
You cant put the cart before the horse. First believe.
That is "putting the cart before the horse". The way it's supposed to work is this: first, you gather evidence, then you test the evidence, and then you believe based on the results of those tests. Believing first is irrational and completely senseless for reasons that should be obvious.