I have had a rough week. My health is not good at this time. This week I discovered a whole new depth of agony. There were times that the pain was so bad, I wondered what the point of life is...is it to suffer and then to die? What kind of meaning is that?
While I was waiting in the wheelchair for the car to be pulled around to take me home from my first visit to the emergency room, an older black man came up to me and asked if I had ever had a migrane before. I told him yes. I could see in his eyes that he was suffering. I told him that I hoped that he was feeling better soon. He said thank you and took my hand. As I clasped his, he said, "If I could take your pain from you, I would do so."
This touched me. That a stranger to me would show me so much compassion. I looked into his sweet eyes and saw that he was sincere. I thanked him, then I was overwhelmed with appreciation and I stood up and hugged him. As I sat back down in the wheelchair, I noticed that the entire waiting room was looking at us. Many of the people had a look of incredulity on their faces.
On my way home, although I was still in pain, I couldn't help but smile because of the kindness this old man had shown me.
Sorrow and joy, pain and beauty. This life is a tapestry of rich opposites. Even though life is truly horrific at times, there is still much that pleases me.
I have made a top ten list of my joys this week and wanted to share them with you. It would cheer me if you would share your's with me:
1. The first on my list is my son....We got through his tumultuous teen age years and he still loves me. He still hugs me and kisses me even if we are around his friends.
2. My son's girlfriend. What a beauty...I look forward to the grandchildren that she and my son may give me one day. Thank you Alicia for doing my dishes while I was at the hospital.
3. My pets....They were all there to greet me and give me luvins when I got home from the hospital.
4. My parents....who have been the best parents they know how to be.
5. Dear friends who stop in to see me while on their way through town.
6. Making up with internet friends who I thought would never want to speak to me again.
7. Breakfast at my favorite restaurant, the Corner. If you are ever in KC, this is the place for award winning biscuits and gravy.
8. A sunny, autumnal day with the smell of walnuts in the air and the leaves crunching under my feet.
9. A favorite movie on the TV.
10. A big bowl of toffee flavored popcorn.
11. The dog licking and tickling my feet.
Okay, I listed 11 instead of 10. But once I got to thinking about it, I realized that there is even more to love about this life.
It's your turn now....What pleases you?
Love,
Robyn
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"If you desire peace of soul and happiness, then believe; If you would be a disciple of truth, then inquire."
"Set me as a seal upon thine heart, for love is strong as death."
Edited by - robdar on 20 October 2002 13:45:36