Rob , that was very well written , beautiful words and it really showed your beautiful spirt as well.
I am so sorry you have been so sick. Hope you are on the road to mending.I am not sure what made you sick if it is something that comes and goes or was acute, just hitting ya so hard.
I have some physical problems that cause me great pain, and honestly the only thing that touches the pain, would be a good large shot of morphine!!!!!!!!!!LOL.. But I can't do that , everytime the pain hits, I have to choose when the pain gets too bad,, usually a severe migraine or fibromyalgia pain. The arthristis pain is bad , but bearable compared to when those two strike.
I feel like that sometimes, when I just feel soul sick too. When I wonder why in the world, don't my children have my parents around as grandparents. Why don't I have the father that I loved so very much. Why did my mom have to die so young, and in that way???? I get to feeling like I just wonder why , and I get made , pissed the heck off.
But the other nite, my son was playing football, Denny's parents came to the game, my heart melted. My motherin law, had fallen that day off a ladder and hurt her ribs, shoulder and neck. Yet she came to see Jake play. I realized that even thou my children have only one set of grandparents, that is just fine, Denny's mom and dad more than make up for the what they don't have. Some kids don't even have one set, so I am grateful they are such an important part of our lives.
A friend sent me a heartfelt gift, that brought tears to my eyes, I was overwhelmed with such a warm feeling .
My sister lives down the street and pops in just about everyday, just to show me her new haircut, just for a hug, whatever, and it makes me glad that I have her.
My husband, everyday working when his back hurts and taking care of us all. I am grateful for all he does. And all he puts up with.(LOL the only thing he asks for is for his remote,,, which is always lost).
The kids for telling me I am the the best mom in the world, even thou I know I am by far , not.
Lots of little things, make me glad to be alive, but it is scarey to me to think if I was alone and lost my family, how none of the little things would mean anything to me. Without them I can not see the beauty of life at all.
