Feild service and answering

by shera 20 Replies latest jw experiences

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  shera

  I was wondering how you all felt about feild service.

  I didn't like it all all,I would have minor anixety attacks and sweaty palms before I went door to door.

  I would have a hard time taking a door,so one time,my loving "sister" left me standing at door by myself.I remeber being "happy" I took a door,but tramatized as well.I don't remember what I said and even if I made sense to her.

  I was very uncomfortable going to peoples door and trying to force religion on them,when they didn't want it.I only went out because it was imbedded in my mind that I had to go door to door to save peoples lives.I didn't want to have blood on my hands of the people I may have helped save with God's words.

  With the answering,I almost passed out...LOL..I used to be painfully shy.When I didn't answer enough,I would be judged as not being spiritually(SP)strong.The woman I was studing with would try to raise my hand up.The way I looked at it there was no accepting of who you were...had to be like the social butterflies to be accepted.Now thats what I call love.
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  TR

  I hated FS, but assumed at the time that I was making God happy.

  TR
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  LB

  I hated both and hated them even when I was zealous. It made no sense to me to go door to door. Everyone had already been hit hard and often. It only pissed people off. Answering questions that were so redundant was also stupid. A study? Give me a break.
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  onacruse

  Well, for many many years I loved them both. Pioneered when I could, always answered, usually several times, at every meeting. Was excited when asked to give an impromptu talk. Thrilled when I started a bible study, brought several people into the org.

  Hey, it was my life! What can I say?

  That was then, this is now.

  Craig
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  shera

  I also disliked the thought of having to prove myself to the organization.

  UMMMMM..."I thought this was between God and I"
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  Shakita

  Hi shera,

  I also hated service and answering the redundant questions at the meetings, when I did answer. I am on the shy side so I found it hard to answer alot. Frequently, I was counseled about answering. All the drones must. If not, you cannot be part of the collective.

  I was brought up to respect others, and when repeatedly going to the same doors in field service, I felt like this was disrespectful to them. I was always having to find a way to justify it with myself. Like, we will be bloodguilty if we don't, this preaching work was foretold in the bible, we must find all those who are sheeplike before the end, etc... we were so duped into believing that this was all for GOD. It wasn't for GOD, shera, it was for an organization who has billions of dollars in assets around the globe. While their poor followers are sacrificing time, money, their whole life, for an organization that doesn't give a crap about them, they are becoming stinking rich!!!!!!!

  Mrs. Shakita
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  shera

  I'd say they are getting stinkin rich,when they changed the placement of magazines to donation.WE would donate money for the magazines,more than they were worth if we sold them,than to ask for money at the doors.I wouldn't ask for donations at the doors after I payed for them already.I told them they were free I would get the look from the other sisters when I refused to ask for a donation.

  I think this way they are getting double the mooola.
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  dsgal

  shera,

  I thought I was the only one who had problems answering and talking at doors.One time I choked up at the door because I felt so unqualified compared to the sister I was with.She waited out on the sidewalk at the next door where it was my turn to talk.I was terribly embarrassed.As far as answering goes,I only answered at the book study and that was even very difficult for me.They were always giving talks about how important it is to comment at every meeting as if God absolutely doesn't want anyone who is shy.Who are they to say who God wants?They always used Romans 10:10 on me,"Public declaration by mouth means your salvation."This was meant to make me feel guilty.Anyway,I just faded away since I was already doomed according to them.I knew one lady who was not able to have a part on the assembly and one of the elder's wives told her that she didn't have Jehovah's spirit.She figured there was no use in going to meetings if that was the case and she never went back.I don't know of any other religion that says you are doomed if you can't talk in front of people.After all,didn't God create some animals that are shy by nature?
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  joannadandy

  I can't even count how many illnesses I faked to escape field serivce. And then when I had to go I would knock very softly, and leave as quickly as possible. Hated it hated it hated it!

  Answering didn't bother me at all. It was easy. Underline, respond. Book study I answered a lot. Sunday meetings I was obliged to answer once if I wanted to go out to lunch afterwards....hahaha! Way to reinforce the truth huh?
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  Jade

  I hated FS so much I would go to the door and pretend to push the doorbell. It was even worse when I was in school....my mom loved to work our home territory and I would run into my friends from school.