Dang, I just realized I spelled "here" as "hear" in my post above. Too late to edit.
life is to short: If I had been allowed to follow my heart instead of pioneering, going to Bethel, living on nothing for years and years. I would have gotten a decent job and I would be retired now myself. Instead I listened to them and now it looks like I will have to work until I am 72 at the earliest to retire.
Very coincidental that you posted that. Just three minutes ago I was talking about that with my wife. I have a friend who retired in the last year or two from a federal govt job. He was only 54 or 55 when he retired. He is making more in retirement than my wife and I make together both working full-time. We have no prospects for retirement. I will probably literally have to work until I drop dead.
I lived with this friend for a year or so when we were in our early twenties. We were both in school at the time. I was not a baptized JW then, but heading in that direction. I told my wife that I wish I could rewind the clock and do it all over. I remember this friend telling me "you could do anything you want". He was referring to my academic ability.
He worked for thirty years. Yeah, maybe his job was hard and stressful times. But at least HE WAS GETTING PAID to do it. He had afternoons, evenings, and weekends off. He got paid vacations, health benefits, etc. I slaved in misery and under stress for thirty years and I PAID TO DO IT. The organization I was slaving for asked me for payment (donations, Kingdom Hall upkeep, CO funds, etc.). I worked afternoons, evenings, weekends and still felt I wasn't doing enough, and I always felt behind - as if I could never catch up. My friend got a great retirement with full benefits. What did I get for my 30 years? Well, you know.