well i tried to do this yest and i lost all of it, :( lot of typing lost, but oh well, i would welcome feedback from anyone who has been through similar things to me, i got the truth 13 yrs ago, and i never felt like i was wanted not really, I was with a man and had 3 kids with him when i came into contact with the witnesses, but he was a pedophile so i found out and had been doing things to our kids since they were born, i ditched him, he walked from 2 high court trials, and no one in my cong cared abt me, they didnt want to know. said it was in my head, anyway, i struggled for years i hated going to conventions and being ignored by my own cong, it was just me and my daughter on our own all the time trying to serve jehovah, i didnt feel happy but i just wanted to please my god and i just tried my best, i always felt left out and i was never asked to do demos at the hall, its like they were just putting up with me, i was always pulled in for stupid things like the messages i put on my answerphone cuz some stupid stuck up old sister didnt like it anyway then my teenage son was on the school and this ass of an elder who was in charge of it he was always so discouraging to him he kept asking to be UP and the elder always said no, then another elders grandaughter was made a UP same age as my son because of who she was grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, my son went to the car and sobbed that was the beginning of the end for him he left to go live with his father not long after that, but when he came back 3 yrs later he got into trouble with drugs and crime and he started selling my stuff so i told him to leave, he ran to the brothers who then proceeded to bail me up in the hall right in front of everyone an elder and the CO and yelled at me abt being a bad mother and not having jahs spirit, i went home shocked, they told me not to call the cops on my son for drugs even though he was on police curfew and they were coming to my house every night to check on him i went home in a state of shock, next thing my son comes over starts yelling and trying to smash windows, i didnt know this but that elder and his son in law were standing outside in the shadows listening and didnt try to stop him, finally the cops came and he left, next thing im being called to a judicial and told that it was me smashing the windows and swearing, I didnt do a thing, this elder and his son in law gave evidence and i got priv reproof, next day at meeting that elder took my daugter off the school and she had only just managed to get on it after years of asking to, she was heartbroken, i went to usa to meet someone i had been talking to on the internet a brother, we got married and i came back to a terrible attack from my so called friends in the cong they went to the elders said i was irresponsible and then they proceeded to gossip abt my marriage and were just so nasty and horrible so i stopped going i had had enough, then 2 days ago my husband who had supported me in all this decided i was spiritually weak and let his freinds interfere in our marriage and he left me he said he doesnt want me anymore, well thats my story cut as short as i can tell it, there was alot more detail, but my conclusion is, after hearing the stories of other ppl that this org is a trap and it is not what it is meant to be, there is no love there is only power and control and it has shattered my life i feel sick, i cant beleive that they can treat ppl like they do and beleive that our god approves of such things, it is diabolical, satan well and truly has control of this org and it belongs to him, not to Jehovah no matter how much they say it does, its fruits bear the evidence that it does not, there is only so many imperfect mistakes that our god will allow and this has gone way beyond that, if u r in a religion and you are miserable what does that tell u, i dont know what to think anymore, I dont know what will happen at armageddon to me or my kids, but i do know this im nothing like those nasty uncaring stern mean so called christians who are hypocrites they get on that platform and preach love and christianity and as soon as they put a toe off that platform they do the opposite, and what i have heard about the pharissees is soo true they r just like them only worse, id really appreciate hearing from anyone who has had similar to me, i need the encouragement.. thanks so much... i could go on all day as u can imagine but i wont il leave it till next time..
regards to all :)