Hi!
I would love to hear your opinion about what happen to me this weekend with a guy I met.
I met a guy at Internet last week. I called him and we talked from 10 pm until 6 am from the next day. He lived in another town, so we continued our talk during the week. We found a lot of coincidences and good conexion between us. I had the idea with a friend of mine to go to his town and meet him. But my friend couldn't go. So I thought to go anyway, but later I was afraid so I told him that I wouldn't go. He got angry, and I tried to explain that I was afraid. He told me that in life we've to take risk and be happy. I agree, because I'm just in a moment of my life that I take a lot of risk to live happier than before.
I told him that I belong to a very strict religion, that I left one year ago and although my 28 years old I was virgin. So I asked him if he had any expectation about me. He had the opinion that when a couple have sex that is a reason to continue the relationship and isn't wrong, and when it doesn't happen is good anyway. I thought to go and visit him during the day, but convinced me to stay there, because he told me he lived with his mother and had troubles to gave her explanation. He would lie, so I to my parents.
So I visited him and went to him on saturday. We look for a place to stay. In my mind I had the idea that nothing would happen, but very inside of me I knew that it could happen. Finally we went to a motel. That night he was a little rude and to fast in my opinion. So I couldn't do it. I was too nervous. We just had oral sex.
In the morning he told me that two weeks before he liked a german beatiful girl that decided to go with other man to north of our country. So he think about what really happen, why she didn't look after him. Obviously that made that my interest level went down. And another think he said made that my interest on him went down again. He said I look better on the pictures... So that day I thought return to my city. But we had a quiet conversation and I got hot about him. So I stayed one more night and we finally I could relax myself and have sex with him. He was very sweet both nights, because he hugh me while we slept.
I really liked him, because of his personality, but I don't know if he have the same interest on me. I'm going to tell you why.
He paid nothing for me, but I did. He lived with his mother, and I have the idea that maybe he have to paid for both to live. So maybe that was the reason to be so stingy. I think sometimes that maybe he lied to me when he said he had to troubles to explain her mother to stay out of home, to have the chance to spent the night with me. I also think about the german girl he told me and that maybe he doesn't like me too much in the fisic way. He had the opinion that I'm a child, because I have a lot of energy and dreams to make things. These are the reason that maybe he doesn't have too much interest in me. But I think also that he was very sweet when he hugh me while we slept, and took my hand before I left. And still wants to talk to me and visit me.
Now I feel doupts of course and little sad... In the one hand I think that maybe I'm incredible nave and he took advantage of it, and in the other hand maybe I wanted to have sex for the first time...
Please give me your opinion about it.
Thanks a lot in advance.
ardilla