Dede,
When you look over all you've learned about them--the failed prophecies, the doctrinal screwups and flipflops, the arrogance, the gossiping, the behavior totally unlike what "God's" true followers should be doing--how can you fear them?
Sure, I sometimes vaguely thought about trying to go back, years ago. Now? No way. I've seen too much, read too much, burned my bridges mentally.
I feel sadness for those still in it. I feel frustration when logic and common sense fails to convince an active JW that the GB is wrong on various matters. With some of the stories posted, I sit back and think, "You've got to be...kidding me. Nobody can be that cruel or callous." And then I think of their answers to Silentlamb's charges, the Dateline and Panorama programs, and I think, "You thought you'd seen it all...well, guess what."
If God desired no one die, would He have "shaken the tree" in 1975 and made many fall away by giving the GB false info? Not if Titus 1:2 is right. So I blame those in the GB.
Sometimes I think the WBTS is the biggest con job ever pulled on the world. The ultimate religious scam. Like Christ said about the Pharisees being like whitewashed tombs, outwardly pretty and inwardly dead.
The only thing I "fear" about them is I'll miss seeing them get the royal kicks in the ass they so richly deserve.