Kingpawn,
Thanks for your reply. Those of you who believe LSD or drugs of any sort were involved on my part are completely wrong. I NEVER did any drugs of any kind. But, my husband did, and our home was often the scene of drug parties, etc., which I removed myself and my son from participation. I was a faithful JW, and I truly believed that what was happening came from "demons". I do believe that when the human mind becomes a blank piece of canvas, that we open ourselves up to anything out there that might try to get in. Something that would try to block our spirituallity....the dark side.
But, now as I reflect back on this and other "events" that have occurred in my life, I realize that perhaps the old farmhouse was actually just haunted by harmless entities. None of the entities ever hurt us, though we were scarred to death sometimes. We could have definitely been hearing sounds by rodents, I suppose. Although, other things that occured could never have been done by a squirrel or a rat or a mouse. We did learn later on that the house was invested with snakes. So, I do understand, and have understood for years, that in many cases, there are explanations for lots of stuff. However, for lots of other stuff, there is no explanation.
Because unexplainable things have happened to me, I never discount what someone else expresses as their experience. Things do happen that are absolutely "out there". We can't seem to find any logic in any of it. I will admit that when I can't understand why something happens, I used to get really freaked out "secretly", but I NEVER DISPLAYED MY FEARS AND EMOTIONS to my infant son. Remember, I believed that we were protected by Jah, and so I did feel protected. But, I did try to use wise judgment in certain situations, where I deemed it best to simply remove "us" for awhile. I used the occasions of "parties" in our home to give a witness to young people who where using drugs and had no direction in life. There were some very profound discussions in those days.
People have always tested things. People are very curious by nature. As long as we are searching for the good, and are close to the white light, we will be alright. But, it is my firm belief, that there is a dark side as well, and that is the area I keep away from.
I hope your Wicca studies enrich your life and help you live a fulfilled human existence here. That is what we all strive for I believe.
Edited by - Sentinel on 15 December 2002 18:21:24