Robyn, you are doing one of the best, and hardest, things you will ever do for yourself and your family. You should be very proud.
My husband, an 18 year pack-a-day smoker, recently quit (3 months, 9 days and counting) using Zyban to jumpstart his quitting process as well. I won't say it's been easy or fun for him (or for ME for that matter!), but the sense of accomplishment he's gained has been worth every difficult moment. They say that for nicotine addicts the quitting process can be as difficult as that of giving up heroin. I'm inclined to agree with them after watching the first few weeks of my husband's 'cigarette-sobriety'. The headaches, sweats, and shakes were just as bothersome as any hollywood depiction of a junkie without their fix. There were days when it would have been easier to just tell him to "go and have a cigarette already!" than to deal with the highs and lows. Gradually, the playing field levels, and the benefits are almost immediate. I can't tell you how nice it is to kiss this man I love, and for the first time in five years not taste the last cigarette he smoked. My house smells so clean and fresh, our clothes no longer smell of ashes, and I haven't had a cold or runny nose in three months! On Christmas Day, I opened a small box he'd wrapped that contained only a note that said "the rest of my life, smoke free". Best present I've ever received.
No one will ever be able to tell me that people who can't quit smoking are just lazy. I'm not sure everyone could fight their way through the addiction and win. You have a great start, congratulations and best of luck in each coming day. You can do it!