I agree with Nic, I am not like a person who's been put off marriage by an abusive partner. I have come to the conclusion that I no longer need religion not because of an abusive cult but because of years of study, research and a great deal of thought. You ask about my baptism which to me was a weird ritual from a two thousand year old religion.
However I look at religion anthropologically, it's where we have come from and hopefully we will grow out of the need for setting rules for other people. Mainly because to me life is about personal growth and what growth can there be if a religion tells you how to behave with every decision you make in life.
I know you will say it's not about religion it's about a personal relationship with your God. I am truly glad if that works for you but it no longer works for me.