Hi everyone,
I've enjoyed reading all of your comments. At first, I wasn't going to post to this thread, because I turned 40 in October, and I have to tell you, this has been a tough one for me.
None of my other birthdays have meant a thing to me...of course I was a dub until 36, so birthdays didn't really matter, right? I never worried about growing older, because it just wasn't going to happen to ME!
Normally, I am a very cheerful and optimistic person. Just recently though, I have been thinking about the reality of growing older, losing loved ones in death, and then leaving others behind myself. Now don't get me wrong, I haven't gone into a full blown depression over it or anything, but these thoughts pop into my head at the oddest times.
Maybe it's because so many things changed in my life in a short period of time. Add to that, my oldest son Dominic told us recently he's getting married. He isn't quite 18 yet. Then he dropped on me that he's enlisting in the army. While these are things I'm happy and proud about, they are still big adjustments for a Mom.
I guess it's just the changes I'm having to adjust to. I think a trip to Vegas is just what the doctor ordered! Yeah, staying up all night playing the slots, drinking toasted almonds...then hopping in the hot tub for some naked wrestling with hubby......yeah, that's the ticket!!!!! Ok, nevermind, I just talked myself out of worrying about it.
Tracy
Edited by - think41self on 6 February 2003 23:9:47