I was two people at once, were you?

christopherceo

Oh yeah, I did it. I lived the double life and nobody EVER found out. I did all the things a pioneer/servant was supposed to do. I also smoked a lot of pot, among other things. Some suspected that something was different about me but couldn"t put their finger on it. And I enjoyed my little secret, it helped me keep my sanity and sense of humor. I got high before meetings, field service, get-togethers, etc. How did I explain my red eyes and "fuzzy brain"? I worked late hours, I was sleepy. The only reason I hung on the last couple of years was because of my wife and kids but when I caught her cheating on me, it was all over. Now the secret me is the public me with the exception that I am proud to say that I am no longer a JW. How about you? Were you leading a double life?

Satanus

No, i didn't do the double life thing (maybe it would have been better if i had). But, i'm curious how were the meetings when you were flying high? Did you find them funny or clunky? Maybe i should try it now, after being out for 6 yrs.

SS

Nosferatu

Yeah, I led the double life. I was soooo good a giving talks in the theocratic ministry school. Everyone thought I was making real progress.

In school, I made out with girls, I cussed like a sailor, I started smoking (the meeting started getting real long). I also had to hide some of my more questionable CDs whenever Witnesses came over to the house.

I must say that it was extremely stressful.

obiwan

Oh man did I ever! If my mom new what I was up to...a stroke would have followed.

CoonDawg

Yep...I had my porno stash and cussed like a sailor at work. (that could be tricky since the P.O. worked where I did 3 days a week.) I too, had the "gift" of ginning up any amount of horse-s*it, even at the last minute and presenting a bang-up talk. I was asked to do all kinds of things. I was not an MS but was doing Literature, Mags, and Territory all at the same time. I was so glad when I started turning down those jobs....and quitting the ones I had. I was finally free when I quit the TMS.

Ern

Makena1

When I was in da troof, guys like you really pissed me off while I was doing my best to walk the straight and narrow. When my wife and I had kids and I joined the elder club, it really irritated me seeing others in the hall leading double lives and getting away with it. Many times, children of elders and MS.

Now, I don't give a rip, I occasionally smoke, watch whatever movies I want etc - but I still think there is something to be said for basic integrity. Not judging anyone else - people should do what makes them happy and works for them.

JMHO,

Mak

wannaexit

No! I could never be accused of living a double life. I tried hard and sincerely to do whatever was required, and expected of me. I pioneered, helped out, commented, studied every publication that came out, put in practice every suggestion given etc. etc. I was the perfect JWmodel.

ApagaLaLuz

Hey Wannaexit........ I hated people like you

But I luv ya now

*muah*

acsot

wannaexit:

No! I could never be accused of living a double life. I tried hard and sincerely to do whatever was required, and expected of me. I pioneered, helped out, commented, studied every publication that came out, put in practice every suggestion given etc. etc. I was the perfect JWmodel.

Me too.

Chevynstats: Maybe if you had known how stressed out and guilty I always felt in spite of trying to measure up, you wouldn't have hated us "Super-dubs". I always hated the ones who could let themselves do "un-JW" stuff and just enjoy themselves . Aren't we all much happier now ?

ApagaLaLuz

I never lived the double-life. I did the whole good dub thing too. Regular pioneering, volunteering for just about everything. I didn't do the double thing, not because I didn't want to, but I was too afraid to. Though I deffinently had 'double thoughts.' I just didn't know any different. I felt guilty for sneeking around to go see a rated R movie at the theatre.

I just hated the self-righteous dubs. I used to have an English friend who was like that. He recently got engaged to one of my old best friends. She's beautiful, intelligent, funny, the most caring person I know, independant, a pioneer. And bless her heart, always tried to do things the JW way. On a recent trip to him in England, he called off teh engagement because he didn't think she was "spiritually minded' enough.

And yes I read the guidelines before I post, but Goddammnit. Who the hell does the Bastard think he is to be better than her.

I was two people at once, were you?

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